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When Five Fell

The morning is when she lingers. It’s before the world wants anything from her and that’s when she’s most beautiful. It’s true that not many saw her like that but I can’t say I was the only one. Even though we each have our own beginnings, mornings like this were shared between us all.

She used to tell people that it was like the world was drawn with a dull piece of charcoal. That was before me. Now she sees things my way, it makes a little more sense. This is me. If I’m meant for anything, it’s to show her the world. Is that so bad? The quiet morning like the many before it, calm and comfortable, but comfort can terribly blinding. The difference with this particular morning is in a call. She smiles, for who? I can’t see anymore.

She tells me she wants to be a raindrop. She doesn’t mind falling as long as she’s not alone and raindrops are never alone. She always had a new story to tell me: today it’s about being a raindrop. I wish I could’ve been there cause stories aren’t always enough and words can only go so far. This is me. Sometimes I wonder if she’s still talking to me or
If I’m just eavesdropping. It used to be everyday, sometimes for hours, sometimes for minutes. I think relationships are based on communication but her words however sweet and real sounds so distant and now, they float pass me so effortlessly as if they were meant for someone else.

She must know what she does to me; her every touch, every time she holds my hands, every time she hold me close. This is me. If you hold my hand I’ll be yours forever. A simple promise, that’s all I can offer. Is it enough? It may be too late for me, it may be too late.

Anyone can look from a distance. A stranger can look from a distance, what’s so special about that? But, to know her scent is something else. It means we’ve been close, closer than anyone else. I dare say I’m lucky but when she doesn’t want me, when she’s away and it’s just her scent with me, I can only feel forgotten. This is me, left behind. Am I the stranger now?

There are those nights when it’s just two of us and she softly hides in her own thoughts when only one thing seems to melt the cold sense: a kiss. This is me. Ask me what the perfect day tastes like and I’ll say her lips. And she was my first kiss, it has to mean something, something sure and true because a taste of a pure kiss can’t be shared. It’s the dreadfully romantic idea but there can only be one. The question is, am I the only one? I’m afraid the truth will break me, but her kiss is convincing: I’m not her only one.

She said she wanted to be a raindrop and today it finally broke us. She’d found her own to fall with, her own to fall for. Today she was a raindrop.


Wongfu is incredible.

Haven't done this for awhile...

11. Your Family

Seeing how it's almost 4am, I will keep this short and sweet.

I can't ask for any other family in the world. I love them all way too much. If I had a second life, I would be born in this kind of family again and again. Each and everyone of them are so special to me. Having dinner's together, playing games together, going on vacations together, going to amusement parks together, camping trips together...each and everyone of these moments with them are cherished and treasured in my heart.

Mom & Dad -- My role models of what I want for my relationship with my future husband. Cuddily, loveable, and downright supportive.

My eldest brother & his wife (sister-in-law) -- My second set of parents. The people I can go to in terms of real life situations and troubles I may encounter in my future. And not to mention my bridge to better technology.. ;D

My eldest sister -- Someone who will listen when no one else does. Someone who is there and listens to my pathetic rants and helps to bring me up again. And the person who will always call me her "baby"..  :')

My second eldest sister -- We fight. A LOT. But she is someone who I can relate most to. Someone who will help me once the going gets rough, and will stick by me..in her awkward ways. Hahaha

12. Five Guys Whom You Find Attractive

In terms of real life? Or fictional? 
Screw it. I'll just do both.

Real Life

- My BF :3
- Sam Worthington
- Ryan Kesler
- George Clooney
- Bradley Cooper


- Hadrian Blackwater: Riryia Revelations
- Brigan: Fire
- Zidane Tribal: FF IX
- Kygo: Dragoneye Reborn & Eona
- Han Alister: Seven Realms

Canuuuuuucks... DD':

I wonder when the Canucks will actually start wanting to win.....

Another horrifying loss. Gawd. Lu is totally cracked. I really hope AV puts Schneider in. But what are the chances of THAT?? >__>


9. How important you think Education is

I wholeheartedly believe that Education is extremely important. It's pretty much the bridge that leads you to where you want to go. Even though, I personally, don't really have an exact path of where I want to go in the future, my education can at least provide options of what I want to do. And that's the beauty of Education, there really is no end of options. Even when one is shut down on you, there will always be another one that will open for you. 

It is especially evident in Post-secondary education. You learn so much and even though there are may be topics that actually don't seem relevant, in the long run they will help you. Not only that, Education can provide you with sooo much experience! Universities and Colleges provide exchanges and co-op and that is definitely a road that will certainly help along the way.

Even though I'm lost now, I would never stop pursuing Education. It's what gives me purpose. And eventually, with God's help, it will lead me to where I want to go. :)

10. Put your music player on shuffle and write the first 10 songs that play

1.) Eclipse of Time (Harp Version) - Lost Odyssey; Nobou Uematsu
2.) The Kings Speech - The Kings Speech; Alexandre Desplat
3.) Inciting Incident - Chrono Symphonic; sephfire
4.) Gundam Wing Bridge Collection I - Gundam Wing Operation I
5.) Final Battle - Estpolois; Yasunori Shiono
6.) Blood+ The Final Battle - Blood+ Original Soundtrack; Mark Mancina
7.) Crystal World - Final Fantasy IX; Nobou Uematsu
8.) Everyone's Thought - Gundam Wing Operation II; Koh Otani
9.) Tonight - FM Static
10.) Dance of Curse - Escaflowne: Lovers Only

You can't make this s***t up. xDD This was literally the first 10 songs that popped up. And yes, you can tell...I like listening to lots of game/anime/movie orchestral music. :3

#Bringithome!! Please? D:

Wooow...so that was like a replay of the game 4 Chicago game....That was unbelievable and humiliating at the same time. I think that was like the worst game I've ever saw. 


Are you effing serious??

C'mon Canucks, why stoop to their level of scrap when we can just outskate them and throw pucks at the neck. Start thinking with your heads more than your fists!


I think I need to calm down with some mems...and since I haven't been keeping up, I'll put this post as a 3 in 1!

#Ruinthebruins (?)Collapse )

"Now they're all dead hearts to you~"

5. Things you want to say to an Ex

Who are you again?


4. Bullet your whole Day
  • Woke up at 7:45am, Shower time slot got taken D: 
  • Slept in until 8:05ish, got up to take a shower
  • After shower, ate breakfast
  • Got ready for school and put on...my Canucks Jersey!! ;D
  • Didn't pay attention to Tutorial
  • Found out there was no Exchange Info session today at 11:30am
  • Killed time with Jeremy and Julia for lunch :)~~!
  • Paid somewhat attention in HSCI 216 lecture
  • Left lecture early to catch the Canucks game at 5
  • Arrived at my brother's place with Jeremy
  • Finally Introduced my brother and his wife to Jeremy 
  • Lost my voice while watching Canucks game
  • Canucks EFFING won 1-0 against the Boston Bruins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • Get home and relax in my jammies.... :3
  • Helped my sister move a monster of a dresser into her closet
  • Checked my stuff on the internet
  • Chatting with my friends on MSN, Gtalk and Cell
  • Writing this meme....
What will be doing soon...
  • Maybe drink some Hot Chocolate? :3
  • Sleep like the dead
"You know you've read a good book when you turn the last page and feel a little as if you have lost a friend."  ~Paul Sweeney

Day 3: A Book you Love

A true quote. Very true indeed.

I think I feel that way with all of my books. But then again, even though it feels like I've 'lost a friend', that friend will come back each time. :) Of course there have been bad books, but it's all part of the experience, right?

I can't say for sure one specfic book that I loved. I had many. But the first book that popped into my head when I read this topic was "Eon: Dragoneye Reborn" & "Eona". It's unfortunate, I haven't been able to get out of my teen genre when I'm already almost 20. :P But these two books really stood out for me. They are books that I can just pick up at any given time and just read it all over again. I was that impressed with it.

It wasn't like normal teenage books where they have the modern fantasy, the main character is somewhat weak physically, but ends up somehow saving the world from total damnation. It's rare to find books with strong Girl protagonists. And it's these kinds of books that I truly appreciate and hold dear to my heart. Who doesn't like a strong kick-ass protagonists?

Anyways, these books, really held me when I read them. Having a strong protagonist is just a nice change of pace. It's not the general journey of how they become "strong" : the realization, the fear, and then something changes them and they get the perfect timing to unleash their powers and save the world. With having a strong personality, the character has other areas where they need to go through a journey of changing or becoming strong. It's not just physically, but emotionally and mentally as well. And this is exactly what these two books did. Also, the world in these books wasn't even that big. It was mostly kept inside a Castle or just a different area.

I usually love books that keep going around different areas b/c it gets me thinking of what could POSSIBLY happen next in this new town or w/e? But "Eon", the first book, was all kept into one place. And it gripped me! It was fantastic. It was so exciting and I never knew what the heck was gonna happen next. THAT is what I deemed to be a worthwhile book. By keeping me on the edge of my seat, in only one place, is a book that will be read again and again.

The book wasn't the typical happy ending where everyone lives happily ever after. It had a very mature ending, where it didn't require the girl to kiss the guy and makes you go "awwe" and seals the deal that everything will be alright. This series ended on a satisfying open-ended ending. You know that the character is happy, but what could possibly happen in the future now that this certain something was gone? How will the country cope then? How will she cope now that she doesn't have this certain power anymore? It's a book that is satisfying but yet still makes your imagination sky-rocket.

There really is no 'favorite' book that I could name on the top of my head, but if a book has these aspects that I just encountered...consider itself bought, and read..many MANY times. :)

30 Day Meme Challenge!

It's been awhile since I've posted. It's all been hockey-related, pssh whatever, it's awesome. Can't deny that. But how about we do a little change of pace? :) My sister challenged my other sister and I to do a 30-day meme post. At first I usually avoid these things b/c I never really get around to them, or the topics are just hell-a boring. But looking at these topics, they're actually pretty fun to talk about!

So bring on the challenge!

This will be a 2-in-1 post since I missed yesterday's b/c I was working on a stupid Hsci paper...  (which I should be working on now...) >__>

And. Here. We. Go.

*queue epic music playing in the bg* 

1. Five Ways to Win your Heart

1.) Understands the Importance of Family -- Top priority. If people knew my family, they would understand. Without a family, what is a person? Where is their sense of identity? Family is another part of yourself. It is something that has molded each one of us to who we are today. The importance of family, and keeping close ties with them is an extremely important aspect. It shows that the person appreciates their family and respects the idea of keeping close bonds. My bond with my family is extremely strong, if a person cannot understand this and that my family must be a part of my life, then how do you expect me to get along with you?

2.) Spiritual Faith -- Another important aspect. I strongly believe in applying spiritual faith into our lives. It is always nice to have someone beside you, who understands the life hard struggles we go through today, and offers spiritual strength. I would want a person who understands the strength of my faith and someone who I'm not afraid to speak openly about.

3.) Introduces new sides of me -- There is really no easy way to find yourself in a lifetime. However, it can be through of another that a discovery of new things about yourself can be created. As much as I would like to have someone who has relatively the same interests as me, I would love to have someone who somehow knows and believes that I have something more to unlock. By introducing me to different fields of thinking, hobbies, or even leisure, is an exciting challenge to look forward to.

4.) Romantic and no Hidden Agendas -- I am such a sucker for anything homemade. A cooked dinner, a drawn out card, a love-letter..anything really! I don't know, it just seems that when something is given to me hand-made, it shows how hard that person worked and how much they appreciate you. That in itself is someone who is special. The Hidden Agenda part is really about Honesty. I appreciate an honest person. Someone who doesn't lurk behind the shadows behind your back and someone who is open. I hate to continue guessing on what the other person is thinking, b/c then it leads me to over-think, which then leads to horrible things on my part. I am open (at least try to be), I too would want that from my partner.

5.) Acceptance -- I am not a perfect person. I may give the appearance that I'm strong and confident, however, deep inside I'm quite weak. I have anxieties. I get jealous easily (though I believe I am getting better). I over-think and panic. I am someone who have doubts about myself. When someone can accept these aspects of myself and still love me for who I am, then you have just sealed the deal on capturing me. 


2. Something you feel strongly about

It's kinda hard to pinpoint on a specific thing that I feel strongly about. C'mon, I have sooo many! But I guess the first thing that pops into my head are "girly-girl" Asian girls.


Being an Asian myself, I defy all normal logic of a "typical Asian girl". I am not short. I do not have those "almond Asian eyes". I do not wear makeup. I do not wear frilly clothes. I do not wear high-heels. I do not giggle like everything around me is the funniest thing in the world. 

I am, practically the opposite. I am tall and play sports. I backtalk to people whenever I play soccer or any other sport. I'm loud and what I would believe myself, to be quite a man.

But it's those Asian girly-girls that get me so riled up. Being all cute and short in their cute clothes and girly make-up, they somehow get all of the good guys. And it's just plain unfair. They are even more whine-y and complain-y!! C'mon!! How can you guys take that?? Gawd girls, pull yourself together and stand up for yourself! You're embarrassing the whole female population!!

It's so unfair. By adding a few curls here, fix up some make-up here, the guys are putty in their hands. In order to even to get a guy to notice me, I have to try doubly hard. I refuse to wear make-up (and always will), so I have to resort to getting their attention indirectly. I'm shy at heart. I can't be bold and go up to the guy I like and talk to him like it's nothing. Call me old-fashioned, but I wait until the guy comes up to me. Which is ever so rare. Which is probably why not many guys come to "like/notice" me.

I just don't understand how they do it. All they have to do is flick a piece of their hair-sprayed hair and then all of a sudden all the genuinely good guys are gone. And nothing is left but the douches. Oh wait, even the douches get in a part of that. So I guess that leaves us....with nothing? Awesome.


I think I need to channel some anger into this stupid essay of mine...a;skdfhalkhsldjfadsjf!!!!!! 








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